Posted on 28-Oct-2015
Ever wonder why some days things just don’t go the way you want them? At the pinnacle of these kind of events, some people wonder and ask, “Why, God? Why do you do this to me?”
Sometimes when these things happen, God is simply testing you. He allows things to happen to you. In a sense, “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger”, and when you come out of it, you realise that God uses circumstances like these to teach you lessons that you’d normally not take to heart.
People tend to take errors and mistakes a little too lightly when they are in a good situation. In a sense, God allows you to fall, but only to teach you values that you would otherwise lack. Even then, God is considerate, and once you’ve learned, and realised what God has been trying to teach you, he restores you back to where you were before, and even more.
One major example would be of Paul, formerly known as Saul, the great persecutor of Christians. On the way to Damascus, God appeared to him and struck him blind, which cause him to rethink his ways and re-evaluate himself as a person, and his way of life. Only after he’d given things thought did God restore his sight. He then became, in my opinion, the best defender of Christ. In other words, God brings good out of evil.
God has one big, mighty plan for everyone, one which started before you were born, and will last long after your death. Encompassing everything you do, from small things such as the way you talk, to your characteristics and actions.
Up until recently, things haven’t been going well for me, and I’ve been backsliding in my walk with God. I stopped praying, or even doing devotion. Up to the point where I even questioned my faith and religion. I continuously questioned God, asking why things were as they were.
The funny thing is, God works in many different ways, often in ways you thought impossible. In my case, I was insecure about myself. I tend to wear a mask and act differently in front of different groups of people. If a person confronted me about my attitude or personality, I’d just back away and put on another mask. I hated people criticising me and scolding me. Too make it worse, I thought I whatever I did was right.
Things kept on going this way till a particular church camp happened. There was a session where we’d gather in our groups and pray for our group members. My group leader spoke almost immediately as we started praying, and it was for me. Long story short, he retold everything I told God, word for word, masks and all. He ended saying that I should read the Book of Job.
It was then I realised that I had to change, that I’ve been backsliding and moving further from God. Since then, with the guidance of my pastor and youth group, I’ve gotten back on track and am working to become the person that God wants me to be.